Sometimes there comes a moment in my life when I feel an extreme need to challenge myself and my audience with something that I have never done before. I call those moments “what if moments”. So it all has started as a simple master model for porcelain BJD. Then there were long months of sculpting, the breaks and then resculpting, and more resculpting, and then molding and remolding and then finally casting and then, like if I wouldn’t have spent more than a year on this project already, came “what if moment”. “What if I would decorate a porcelain doll with sculpted roses?” – I thought to myself, and started sculpting tiny porcelain roses and adding them to a casted torso. I had no idea if they will come out nicely or if they will fall off after firing, if the doll parts themself will fall apart because of different thickness of the porcelain, if something will explode at the end… you never know when you are doing something for the first time and you have noone to ask about it… but well – it had to be done, because I would not be able to sleep without knowing the answer to “what if …?” Just in a case I have sculpted a couple more doll bodies of this type and placed everything to kiln for the first firing. WIth a trembling heart I had opened it the next day and – voila! – the doll parts didn’t fall apart and all the ornaments and blossoms were still in their places. This was encouraging. After sanding and adjusting I went for the second (the high temperature) firing, and again the tremble of the heart. Eleven hours to fire, ten more to wait for the kiln to cool down and… nothing happened! All doll parts came out nicely! What a relief! And a small moment of pride – I did it
And the a second “What if moment” has hit me. “What if I make the joint lining not the most ugly part of the doll, but the most beautiful?” A fancy lace collar on the leg joint? Some beading maybe? Yes, no matter how crazy it sounds, I have to try it! And so I did. And I absolutely love how it looks, how ever the fans of doll’s mobility and functionality would be disappointed, because the doll has lost a good part of it… well beauty comes at a price
The other “what if moments” that happened during the creative process:
“What if I use a crackle glaze on a porcelain doll” – ordered glaze, experimented a couple of times mixing different colors and firing until I have found the shade and texture that I needed for this doll. It came out beautifully. yay!
“What if I string the doll with help of a flexible wire” – bought flexible wire of different thickness, tried out several ways of stringing, spent some days on rethinking the scheme – it didn’t work, and I had to come back to a classical way. pfff… not all experiments end up successfully, but it is still a useful experience.
So let me present you my first fully jointed porcelain BJD:
That feeling of harmony with the world and oneself, that feeling of being able to accept and to give, that feeling of fulfilment…simply blooming.
Why is my blooming full of cracles and scratches? Because it didn’t come easy at all…
English bone porcelain
Glaze and overglaze paint
The doll is stringed with metal springs.
And here one more beautiful journey has come to the end. It was absolutely fantastic to meet Brenda – a beautiful lady who loves travels, dolls and cats. I loved creating this personal demon very much, and I must admit that I have surprised myself creating a cat chair for this tiny dollie. I am very happy to know that the owner of the doll liked it a lot, and especially pleased that the doll has come right for her birthday (even when I didn’t know the date).
Meeting new like minded people can be a wonderful experience, and meeting people who inspire to create – is a gift!
This journey has lead me to know the beautiful lady Jane from another side of the world. It appeared that we share our love to nature and to fantasy world and we both enjoy making dolls and love strong female characters. And there are many more similarities between us that made me wishing we would live closer to each other, so we can have a cup of tea from time to time…. but well… we live on different sides of the world, and I had put all my best regards and warmth of my hands into the “Tiny Jane’s Demon”, that will take them across the planet right into her new owners hands.
It is symbolic that I am shooting photos of these two girls today, as today we celebrate a day of love.
And today I want to talk about love more than ever, because I see so much unhidden and pure hatred around. It seems we have forgotten the power that we have when we are united. We forgot how similar we all are, how we all want to live in peace, how we all love our close ones, how we all care of our future and of the future of our children. So so many people have forgot about our similarities and are looking for differences in each other, so they can justify their hatred. We all want to have a freedom of choice – whom to love, where to live, what to believe in, how to built our future. We all want this freedom to be respected by the others, but how often do I see that people criticize other people’s choices, how easily they demonstrate disrespect. How easily they forget how similar they are with each other and what unites them. How easily they hang tags on other people, how easily they delete faces and names and blinded by their own false significance they suddenly… start a war.
Today I want to call for love. I want to call everyone to open their eyes for similarities that unite us.
After I have posted some work in progress photos on my facebook, I received a huge feedback and many requests to show more of what is going on in my studio. What can I say… I can’t say no when my fans are asking me for something
So here we go – a Tiny Silent Movie about a new doll that that I was working on since several weeks ago.
Hugs to all!
Sparrows – the little gray/brown birds – they are everywhere. Picking up seeds, making noise in the twisted branches of my garden hedge, fighting over a tastier crumb or simply sitting on a treetop and enjoying the sun. No one pays attention to them, no one admires them for their voice of beauty, but they seem to not care of it at all. They live their happy sparrow life, and they have no idea that the world is as it is because there are sparrows.
“Little Sparrow” is one more artistic interpretation of Tiny Tender Demon. The doll is around 25 cm tall. Her layered dress was sewn from fine transparent fabrics, embroidered with “muline” threads and aged in my original technique. It was really tricky to make her corset with long sleeves but I liked so much how it has come out, that I am definitely making more.
Today I am introducing my last doll for this year – a tiny “Winter Shaman”.
She comes from North and sings her magic lullaby, she covers everything with an underlay of soft snow and brings everyone sweet dreams, so the world has finally peace of mind and a good and deep rest.
Peace and love everyone!
Happy new year!
Hello my dear fans and collectors!
I know, you have been waiting patiently for the news from me and I am enormously grateful for that!
It took me a long while to sort everything, but finally, here I am with the big news!
As some of you may know already, since the beginning of this year I was making a prototype for a resin doll.
Why have I decided to cast my doll in resin? First of all, because it will save me a lot of time from sculpting each doll and there for it will allow me to charge less. I am still going to dress up these resin dolls in unique costumes and create different characters for everyone who wishes to have their special doll made by me.
The resin dolls that I am presenting today are called Tiny Tender Demons (TTD). They are 21 cm tall and can easily be placed in your palm. They feel very natural while handling, almost alive and can pose in many different ways. Little ones have tiny mini horns on their forehead, their body has 20 points of articulation and they are coming with demonic heel shoes also created by me. They have magnets in their heads to hold the wigs, and 5mm hand made eyes.
Because Demons in antique mythology were caring and joyful creatures inspiring and guiding people.
In fact, εὐδαιμονία eudaimonia, (literally good-spiritedness) means happiness. (check it in Wikipedia)
Sadly, when christianity came to power, all ancient gods and spirits were condemned; poeple’s homes, green forests and blooming gardens they were sent to the underground fires of hell, all and each of them were evilized no matter what role they have played before. Maybe this is why my Tender Tiny Demons looks so thoughtful and sometimes sad.
The second reason why I liked Demon as a character so much, is because they are reflecting my inner me so well. They are not evil they are not saint – they are just as they are no matter how others are painting them.
The fully customized TTD will come together with these awesome hand painted and lined with fabrics wooden boxes.
I am also going to make special stands for them which may be painted plane color, or decorated with glass mosaic and ageing effects.
Yes I know that some of you would like to buy a non customized doll and to paint it yourself.
I am keeping it in my mind and making plans to sell some “ready to custom” TTD’s too, but that is for later.
It’s been a while since my last post… I am sorry for not posting more often.
But you know me, when I am not posting, I am most probably working on something. There are several projects going on in my studio, and all of them are long term projects, but hopefully I will show you some new dollies soon.
Meanwhile, I have upgraded one of my earlier dolls and decided to offer it for my dear collectors. This doll is very special, because it is my first male doll.
His name is Eros, and he is a traveling artist. A gentle man of a romantic nature, he is welcome in boudoirs of high born ladies and joyfully greeted by peasant girls. If you will take a look at his sketches, you will see how tenderly he reflects his admiration for his muses.